Thursday, November 8, 2012


Todays Wt 134

I'm still trying to figure out why on day's I don't work out, I lose more wt then the days I do..

Example:  On 11/1 woke up and my wt was 138. I didn't work out and on 11/2 I woke up and weighed 136.5. I 11/2 I worked out woke up 11/3 and my wt was 138. I worked out 11/3 wt on 11/4 was 136. Worked out on 11/4 woke up on 11/5 wt was 137.5. Worked out 11/5 woke up 11/6 wt was 137. Didn't work out 11/6 or 11/7 woke up this morning and my wt was 134?????    I seem to lose more when not working out then when I do.. It's so odd to me.. It's also not very helpful to feel that you workout isn't doing anything but making you gain or stay where you are. Yet, when you don't work out you lose.
I understand the water wt, I get that, but not how I can lose 2.5 pds in two days, especially since I take a water pill everyday anyway..

Don't get me wrong I love the loss, even though I'm not trying to lose anymore.. I just want to understand what my body is doing so I can keep my motivation for excercising going..

Tuesday, October 23, 2012


I did it!!!!   I hit my goal yesterday, so excited!

First let me go over my stats..

I starte pre liquid diet Jan 25 2012
I had lapband surgery Feb 8th 2012

My highest wt was 264
My wt day of surgery 250
My first goal wt was 145/ then I changed it to 140 which I met on 10/20/12

So I've lost a total of 124 pds from my heaviest and
I've lost a total of  110 pds from surgery

I can't believe I'm here. It's been hard at times, not so hard at other times. I have tried to reflect on the how's and why's of my journey. How I got heavy? I was never one of these ppl who binge ate or someone who could eat a whole of anything. I ate 3 meals a day and a snack at 8 pm. I only had desserts on Saturday. I think most of my problem came from going out to eat a lot and the volume of food I would eat. I always would try and pick healthy choices but I also would eat more then I should of the meal.. I also never excercised. I'm very much a home body, still am so moving myself only happend on weekends. Yes! I cleaned my house and did those things but never much more then that..

I'm still reflecting, trying to learn, try to change the how's and why's so I never ever go back to 264.

Very Very grateful for my band

Sunday, September 23, 2012



Wt today 147.5.. I only have 2.5 pds to go to get to my first long time goal, then only 7.5 pds to get to my new goal wt.. I have lost since my heaviest in Jan 2012, 116.5 pds and a total of 102.5 since my surgery on Feb 8th 2012.   It's been so life changing for me.. I have been overwhelmed at times, especially when it comes to clothes. I cleaned out my closet and had a major melt down because nothing fit and I was left with nothing but a few things in my closet. I had no winter coats, no dress clothes, no sweaters, it's so overwhelming to think of the money I now need to spend to get those things.. Some of my clothes have memories attached to them so letting them go was very hard and some I just loved.. I also am having a hard time finding what looks good on me..  I spend most of my adult life wearing clothes that were to big on me, because I didn't like to wear clothes that were to tight to show my fat. So now I'm trying to go more fitted and it's hard.. I so need a stylist, lol!! I'm really not complaining, it's just that I didn't expect to lose this much wt so fast and right before the holiday's. It's just a lot all at once, but I will figure it all out..

Not much else going on.. Hope everyone is having a great Sunday

Take care

Monday, September 17, 2012



Sorry, I've not written in awhile, but to be honest I was waiting for something to happen to write about and today is the day..

Well, today I met my dr. wt loss goal for me. He wanted me to get to 150 and here I am.. I'm so excited I wanted so bad to call his office to tell him, but  didn't want to look stupid.

So, this means I have lost 114 pounds from heaviest and 100 pounds from surgery..So so excited!!  I only have 10 pounds to go.. Unreal!!!  This Wednesday I will be banded 32 weeks, so made his goal in just a few days short of 8 months..  Unbelieveable!! 

What a journey this has been and will continue to be.. Real happy with everything and feel real good too, so that's  more important then anything.. I'm not that sad fat girl anymore.. Think I'm finally finding myself again and to be truthful, I've miss her so much.. 

I wish everyone mush success in your journey as well..

ON Wards and Up Wards..

Friday, September 7, 2012


OMG!!  I got on the scale this  morning and it said, 153.5, yeap that's right 153.5! can't believe it.. I haven't worked out in two days and I still lost. Unbelieveable! Very happy. Of course I didn't go back on the scale and double check it. I saw the number a jumped off and got all excited, that was enough for me, lol! SO, I just have 3.5 pds to go until I reach the goal the dr. set for me. So I'm a happy camper this morning..

Today, I will work out and do my usual workout. So we will see what tomorrow brings.

Have a great weekend everyone!!

Thursday, September 6, 2012


Today's wt 154.5..  Excited that I'm moving down at some..  I saw my P. A yesterday and she put in 08cc in my band do now I'm at 4.3 cc's.. Totally think this is going to be it for awhile.. Feel a little tight which is good, it's what I wanted but not to tight where it's uncomfortable. She say's I have done so well, that I could start to increase my food a bit to 1 cup.. I told her I wasn't going to do that until I met my goal. Once goal is met I plan I staying at 1 cup for maintenance. She said that was fine, but at least increase my proteins, since my labs came back and I'm real short on protein, which is wierd becuase I've been eating on average between 75 to 95 grans a day anyway. Labs showd my cholesterol whas up so I have to work on that, which I don't get, but oh well labs don't lie.. All I eat is protein and fruits and veggies so how it went up confuses me.. 

I'm on liquids just for 24 hours so I have until 3 pm today, so that's not to bad. They don't require a messy stage, but I like to do just to be safe. So I will watch what I eat until 3 pm friday..

So numbers.

My heaviest 264
Wt day of surgery 250
current wt 154.5
so I've lost a total of 109.5 from my heaviest
I've lost 95.5 from surgery
I'm 4.5 pds away from my dr. goal wt for me
and I'm 14.5 pds away from mine, well actually my goal wt had orginally been 145 so that's 9.5 pds away but I changed it just to be below my bmi not on the edge, so we will see..

Thursday, August 30, 2012


Finally hit 155.5, just down .5 from but still down..

I did change my floor workouts a bit, now today I can't move my legs.. I also decided to cut back 1 day a week on excercise, so today I'm not working out.. I going to try and not work out on Thursday's and Saturday's as they are my busy day's of the week..  I really feel that 5 days a week is better for me. My body was real tired after 6 day work outs, so I will give this a try and see how my wt and body feels.

Have a good one!! 

Wednesday, August 29, 2012


I'm so frustated!!!!  My wt just doesn't seem to be moving at all.. I keep being between 156 to 157, today, 157..
Every Wednesday I do my totals. How much I've lost since heaviest, how much lost since surgery, how much lost for the week. This week it was up 0.5, that's the first time this has ever happened to me. I have always either lost wt or stayed the same, never gone up any. Now, .5 is nothing and I bet if I go upstairs rt now and weighed myself it would be down .5 but I still don't like it.
My dr. goal for me is 150 and  I just want to get there.. It's going on 3 weeks and the scales have not moved, just don't get it.. I still eating between 600 to 800 cal. I'm working out 5 day's a week, ( which is different, was doing 6 days, but I must say I feel a lot better, those 6 day's drained me )..
I think part of the problem is, I'm working out fine, 1 hour on treadmill and doing wts, pilates, floor excercises and rope, but I'm not really moving any other time.. Unless of course I'm cleaning house, or taking the dog out, etc.. I need to move more.. I have been real hungry since back from vacation, but I've not gone off my diet.. I do eat Artic Zero at night around 7 pm, I don't eat anything passed 8pm, but that's only 50 cal for 1/2 cup. The serving sizes say's 37 cal for 1/2c cup, but they say the pint gets 4 servings out of it, but when I do it and scoop out 1/2 cup I only get 3 servings out of it, so I just add the difference... It's easier to make sure my calories correct..

Well, thats it for today, be being bummed over .5 pds, too bad I never got bummed over all the wt I gained over the years, lol!!

Monday, August 27, 2012


Getting so frustated about my wt.. It's still hanging around 156 to 157, why??? I'm still doing everything I'm suppose too. I've not gone off the diet or cheated once, so don't get it. Maybe part of it was I was on vacation and didn't stop once. Now I'm home I have more time just chilling, I don't know but I see the dr next week so we will see what happens. I know part  of it is me not being patient too.  I have lost 12.5 since being vacation so that's real good, just don't like have the scales have not really moved since I've been home..

I am working out 5 days a week.. I even ran 30 mins yesterday with 1 min runs, which was new for me. I usually do 30 sec runs and walk 30 secs but yesterday I did 1 min runs with 1 min walks, felt good..

Today, will be doing laundry, come light cleaning and excercise, not the funniest day on the planet but it's another day.

Happy Monday!!

P.S  I did buy my first pair of size 8 jeans over the weekend.. I little tight but not too tight you can't ware them. I got two pairs and the second pair fits better then the first, so onwards and upwards we go..

wt today 156.5

Friday, August 24, 2012


Happy Friday!!

Well again I'm stuck between 156.5 and 158.. Since I've been back from vacation that's where I've been.. I don't understand why, but it's the truth.. I'm eating like I always do, I'm excercising 5 day's a week, yes! I cut back one day, but I noticed my body feels better at 5 day work out, so I guess I can only keep doing what I'm doing and see.. I see the P. A on the 5th so we will see.. I know I want a fill because since I've been back I've been so hungry, I could eat just about anything. I've not gone off course except maybe eating a pickle with my dinner, but the pickle had no calories so not sure how that works.. Not sure how a pickle can not have calories since cucumbers do????  but I ate one along with a 1/4 cup of salad and 2 oz of mahi burger patty ( Love those they are 140 cal for the whole 4 oz patty and I have half for lunch and half for dinner ) for my dinner, so the pickle was the only thing I ate that was different. I know I have done well with my diet.. I've lost a complete 107.5 pounds from my heaviest give or take depending on the wt for the day and 93.5  from surgery which was Feb 8th 2012 so not bad at all, so guess I really can't complain. The cooler weather is coming too so that will help with water retension too.. Plus I'm not moving around as much as I was when we where on vacation. I didn't seat down hardly at all the whole time we were gone, so I had good work outs.. I'm working out over 600 cal burned each day I work out, with 550 to 620 cal ( not including crystal light drinks which is around 4 to 6 a day ) intake for the day. So most day's I am working out more cal burned then eating which is good right????  Not sure how this all works. The cal burned does not include the times I workout on the floor, wts, rope or do my pilates machine which I do the before I get on the treadmill.. I do 50 sets each on pilates machine, I do 40 sets on the floor and 40 sets with the wts, and 30 sets with the rope, so not sure how much I burn with those..  Well, speaking for excercise need to go work out..

Have  a great weekend

Wednesday, August 22, 2012


Wow!!! today is my 28th week from surgery.. Can't believe it.. It's been 7 months all ready..

Since that time I have lost a total of 107.5 pounds from my heaviest and 93.5 pounds from surgery.. I feel so much better, lighter, healthier, happier, the only down side is the wrinkles, lol!! guess having all that fat makes your skin streached out so the wrinkles aren't there, now they're there, but that's ok..

I've gone from taking 13 pills a day to 4 ( not including vits ). I'm in  a solid 10 pant, large to xl shirt, probably could fit into a med, but like my tops a bit on the loose side.. I'm just real happy where I am.. I love how much happier I am.. I hated myself before. I never left the house, never wanted to go or do anything because I was still ashamed of how I looked.. I still feel that way sometimes, a lot has to do with the fact that starting at the age of 29 I starting losing my hair.. I'm now have very little hair on top of my head, but you know what?? now I don't care anymore.. It still bothers me at times and I go back and forth as to weather or not I want to buy a wig, but right now I'm not going to worry about it. Right now I'm enjoying the wt lose and loving every second of it.  I can't do anything about my hair other then the wig, but I'm healthy and that's all that matters to me right now.. I will deal with my hair another day.

Monday, August 20, 2012


Well, life is back to semi normal.. Been busy getting house in order after our vacation. Laundry done, house semi clean, animals back to semi normal.. Our cat has been sick all day today, not sure why?? will keep an eye open and see if I need to take her to the vet.. THink it might be over eating. I don't think they feed her at the kennel like we do, so we will see.

WT.. Since I've been back I have been from 156.5 to 158. Seems the cooler the weather, the smaller the number.. So back retaining water as usual. When we were in Mt, didn't retain water at all, even though it was hot, it wasn't humid there like here so that's the reason I'm sticking too, lol!! 

I worked out for the first time since being back. Did my pilates machine, did some floor stuff and 1 hr on the treadmill. I left my wts and rope in the truck so will have to do those later  when hubby gets home.. I did walk everyday while in Mt, so really the only time I didn't do anything was the three day's it took to get there and three day's it took to get home, so I walked every day for 14 days, so that's still pretty good. Let's not mentions the walking we did at the national parks, taking grand daughter to park and yellowstone, so all in all feel pretty good that I still lost 7 pounds while gone and kept up some kind of excercise..

Not much else going on today.. Have to head out and pick up a few things, work out is done and out of the way, so have the rest of the day to myself until hubby arrives from work.

Hope everyone is having a great Monday

Wednesday, August 15, 2012


Hello Everyone!!

Back from vacation.. Had a wonderful time with my daughter and grandkids, just sad to leave them behind.. I so wish we weren't so far away, but working on trying to get closer..

Well, today I weighed 158.5, which means I lost 7 pounds on vacation.. Yeppeeeeeeeeeee!!! So proud of myself.. I did't go off course not once..I counted everything I ate and drank and didn't get one thing I wasn't suppose too.. It was hard, but that's ok, nothing in life that's worth anything is easy.. I'm in a sold size 10.. I had to go out and buy some clothes when I first arrived,  because I just purchased some clothes for the trip before I left, but didn't try them back on until I got there. Well, I put them on and they fell off.. So had to run out and get some stuff, shame isn't it? Lol!

Well, I don't have much to say right now, because we just got back yesterday and I'm tired and have loads of laundry to do..

I will say, my daughter cried when she saw me ( she still doesn't know about the surgery ) because she thought I was sick and had lost wt because I had something wrong with me.. It was so sweet and so loving of her..

 Take care,

Wednesday, July 25, 2012


Still hanging around 166.5 again seems I go up a pound then back down.. I'm not conerned or worried, I'm doing everything I am suppose to, haven't gone off track not once since I got the band, so think the differences are water wt..  Still very happy with it. My plan was to get to 175 before I left for vacation which is Friday ( tomorrow busy packing, gettng things ready for trip ) so I really almost lost 10 pounds more so can't complain at all.. 

I have been thinking lately how much of my life is about counting.. I count calories, carbs, protein,oz's, reps, sugars, how much I burn, etc.I spend my whole day counting something. I don't ever seem to stop, kinda of funny really..

I won't be posting when I'm on vacation so this will be my last post for awhile..

wish me luck.. I'm so scaried I will go off track.. I've tried to make sure I stay as close to my diet as I possible can. I'm headed to the store either today or tomorrow to pick up carrots,celery, tomatoes, for out trip. I've already put my jerky in 1 oz servings so they are ready to go.. Not taking any chips or anything like that. I thought migh pick up some single pkgs of nuts to have for my evening snack, but a bit worried about the salt and travel.. So we will see. I will have my w/w string cheese with me, so that might be the better opition for me.

Well, have a great few weeks.

Saturday, July 21, 2012


Happy Saturday!!  Just a quick stop in today since it's Saturday and Saturday's are always date day with hubby..

Wt 167. Only 3 more pounds to go and I've lost 100.. Don't think I can get the 3 off before I leave so I might be hanging around this wt for sometime since I leave on Friday for Vacation..  Hope not, but I'm not going to worry about it.. I want to enjoy my vacation without to much worry about the scale. I will not go off my meal plan, but I'm just not sure about the excercise.. Hopefully, walking and playing with grandkids will help with that..

Well, have a great weekend..

Thursday, July 19, 2012



Wt still 169..  I had my 6 month check up yesterday.. It went great.. My dietician was really happy with my results and she said for a band pt, I'm doing extremely well at this point of my process.. My excercise guy, said he has never seen a band pt lose so much at this point.. He was blown away.. I told him I've known ppl who have done it, but he said he hasn't so just allow him to be proud of me, thought that was nice.. I decided to get fill, been having small issues and I just wanted .5cc put in, well the dr didn't listen to me and she put in 1cc and I didn't know it until after it was all done.. She said she could go back in and take some out and I told her to leave it alone. I sometimes think my P. A is a bit of a scatter brain.. She confuses me when she talks because she is always messing up and having to explain herself and then I get lost it what she is trying to say. I find it annoying.. 
I have noticed a huge difference with this 1cc in. Not sure I like it.. I really have to slow down now. I'm on liquids for 24hrs, that's it.. They don't require mushies after the liquid stage, so I have until 4 pm today.. We will see what happens when I eat.. I need to figure this out before I go on vacation.. It feels really tight and uncomfortable right now so not sure I want to feel that way on vacation. I wanted a little fill because I was being to not be satisfied with my food. I was hungry more and more often and I just don't want to get off track..
But this feels to tight.. I'm not having to much of an issue drinking, but I have noticed I need to slow it down, have few sips and wait awhile longer during sips, so maybe that's a good thing??  I will give it tell the weekend and if I don't feel better by Monday I will call. I leave next friday so the window is short for me. I probably should have left things alone until I got back, but I was so worried I would get off track.. I'll wait and see..

I did  ask what my goal wt should be and she told me they calucated 150. which still puts me in the overweight cat. ?? don't get that at all.. I would like 140 would settle for 145 which is just on the edge.. So we will see.  I know I don't have to much to go, but the journey then will just being..

Take care,

Tuesday, July 17, 2012


He is here, Our new grandson..  It was a surprise since he wasn't due until Aug 2nd, but he and mother are healthy and very very happy so that's all that matters. I was sad I wasn't there,but will be in 10 days, so I really have something to look forward too..

My wt today is 169. I am 5 pounds away from losing 100 pounds.. Wow! unreal.. I can't believe it.. I'm sure the 5 pounds will take forever to come off, but that's ok..
Changing my excercise and eating a small bit has really help jump start my wt loss again. It really was slow there for a bit, now it it coming off like it used to.. I find if my excercise number is higher then my calorie intake the wt comes off much faster too.. Really happy will the progress of done so far.. My goal was to get to 175 before I leave to go on vacation, but it looks like I will exceed that and maybe even make it to 165, even though I think that doubtful..

I really have to get in and get my rings adjusted.. I can barely keep them on, it's that fun.

Yesterday, I was sitting thinking. Since I'm alone most day's I do spend a get deal of time thinking. T
How did I ever get here?? How at one point in my life I thought 175 was fat?? What happened to me?? I really am trying to figure it all out.. I was never the kind of person who would seat infront of the tv and eat. I would never eat whole pizzas ( two slices were all I could take ). I would only eat desserts on Saturday. I allowed my self 1 candy bar a week and I would get it at the check out stand when I got our food for the week. I always made healthier food choices when we went out to eat. So how in the world did I get to 264????? Easy, portions! We went out to eat 3 to 4 times per week. I might order a chicken salad, or even salmon salad. My fav salad was fuji apple chicken salad at panera. I would have that every thurdays.. It's the portion size that got me.. I would eat the whole thing.. I was never a fast food junky, except I did like a in and out burger or five guys..  Well, even if I went out and order a salad, those salads were usually between 1200 to 2000 calories maybe even more and you have that at 1 meal, and then have 3 to 4 day's a week. It all adds up. You never really know how many calories something is until you look it up.. I so think putting calories on the menu is such a great important idea, because this way we all can decide if we want to eat that many calories or not, it's still a choice but one I will think twice about before I ever do it again..

Monday, July 16, 2012


Happy Monday!!  Hope everyone had a great weekend.. We pretty much just stayed home, which was nice we usually don't do that on the weekends, but we need to start getting things ready for our drive to Montana..  Can't wait !

Wt today is 170! It's slowly coming pound by pound.. Wish it was faster, but this is the healthy way. I'm headed for another fill on Wednesday. Not sure I really need it, but think I do. I eat a  my portions just fine, but like I've said before, I can keep eating after sometimes, I can drink and chew normal, would like to have a little bit of slowing down when I eat and that's not happening.. I can eat my meal like in 10 mins, if that. So I think getting a tiny fill will be fine for me. I also have to think about the trip and would like a little bit more control on our trip..

Not much else as always.. Told me my life is very boring, unless I have a dr. appt or need to go food shopping I'm home.. No I don't work, so I just hang at home, work out, take care of the pets, etc..

Have a great week everyone!

Friday, July 13, 2012


Today's wt 171.. How that happened is beyond me, but I will take it..  I have changed things up and bit so maybe that's it. My treadmill work outs are a bit different, I also changed what times I eat and got rid of 1 protein shake, so maybe those two things made the scale move. Who knows!! I will keep doing what I'm doing and we will see. It was a very nice surprise though.. I didn't even workout yesterday, except going to the mall and clothes shop, so maybe shopping should be a new excercise, lol!!

I'm finally down into a solid 12 in pants, amazing!!  I danced around the dressing room for a bit, loads of fun.. I'm trying not to buy to many clothes but we are headed on Vacation for 3 weeks here in a few weeks so I so needed some clothes.. I will make due with the 14 ( even though they are big ) size clothes I am in now just I have something to take, they are all new items anyway and I need to get some ware out of them..

I only have about 26 to 31 more pds to go.. I would love to get to 140, but my goal was always 145. If you go on the BMI chart, 145 will make me just at the edge of normal, so I've reset my goal to 140 to give me a little room.

Anyway, below I will list my wt info..

Have a wonderful weekend.

Heaviest wt: 264
Wt day of surgery: 250
Wt lost so far: 93
Wt since surgery: 79

On we go!!!

Wednesday, July 11, 2012


Happy Wednesday!!

Wt 172.5..  I had a heart attack today on the scale when I got on it this morning. It said 174??? How?? I took a water pill yesterday, I've been 172.5 for 3 days now ( even saw 171.5 ) so how 174?? I decided to take pj's off and there was 172.5 how my pj's weigh 1.5 pds is beyond me, but it did.. The scale or at least my scale is a funny thing. I can get up pee, weigh be 172.5 then go downstairs, have my tea and then breakfast, come back upstairs to get gym clothes on, weigh myself be 171.5, then later be back to 172.5. It's always all over the place..  Yes!! I go way overboard with the scale, but I like it that way.. I have to know where I'm at, can you say control freak.  

My dr. called about my thyroid yesterday.. Seems I have thyroiditis. No reason why I have it or cause, just do.. She said there is a 30% chance I could develop hypothyroidism so they are going to monitor me and see how I do and take it from there.  Keep fingers crossed all will be well..

Well, not much else going on. I'm headed off to the treadmill and do my hour today. Yesterday I did an hour and half..

Have a great Wednesday!

Monday, July 9, 2012


Happy Monday Everyone!!

Not much going on in my life lately, just hanging about.. We leave for vacation on the 27th so trying to get things ready for that..

Wt, well  I got on the scale today and it said 172.5, crazy.. Of coures I didn't weigh myself again to may make sure what I was seeing was 172.5, but I'm taking it. I've again changed up my workout on the treadmill so maybe that helped???  I also change my eating times a bit. I was eating at 10am brk, then shake at 12, lunch at 2, another shake at 4, dinner at 6 and snack at 8. Now I've been eating brk around 8:30am and going till 2 pm before I had anything solid again was to long, so now I do brk at 8:30, lunch at 12 -12:30, shake at 2, snack at 4, dinner at 6, and snack at 8 and it's really helped me stay full.. I have an appt on the 18th for a fill, I called a few weeks back and made because I was so hungr all the time, but thinking now I've changed my eating I should cancel?? I will give it a few more days and see. I might just get a .5cc put in.. I only have 2.5cc in so I have loads of room to play with..

Well, not much else going on. Have a great week..

Thursday, July 5, 2012


Hope everyone had a wonderful 4th of July.. Being a Brit I've never really celebrated Thanksgiving and July 4th.. I did it when my daughter was living at home, but after she moved out to start her new life, I don't really bother anymore.. My husband does't mind. I do cook ( or did not since surgery ) a Thanksgiving meal, but it's small because it's  just usually  hubby and I. Our family isn't close by so it's usually only us for holiday's and to be truthful it's a lot of work for just two people.  We have gone out for July 4th to see fireworks, but with the heat and terrible storm we had a few days ago, staying home was all we wanted to do. We had no electricity for 2 1/2 days and when you have well water and the pumps don't work for water, not fun! Anyway, I do hope everyone had a fun, safe day..

Well today I got on the scale and it said 175.5 then later on I thought I would try again because my first goal was to make it to 175 and low and behold it said 175, so I'm taking it.. I have noticed that my wt is coming off very slow and it's very frustating but it is what it is and I will continue to do what I need to..  I 've dropped 1 protein shake a day and have been trying to figure out good sources of protein that aren't high in calories.  All I've come up with so far is jerky, lol! so I've been having 2oz of jerky as my replacement for my protein shake..I purchased simple bars protein bars and they are not bad, but they seem to elevate my sugars, so I don't eat them very often. They are 16 grams of protein, 2 to 5 grams of sugar and 160 calories, so not bad., 

I found this ice cream called So Delicious Coconut Milk No Sugar Added ice cream.. It's not bad at all, is it ice cream?NO!! but it's  really good sub. I got the chocolate and it kind of tastes like a mounds bar, due to the coconut milk. It's 100 for 1/2cup which is my portion size. It's 1 gram of sugar and it doesn't effect my sugars at all. No real protein though, just 1 gram, but it's a good sub for the hot lazy ice cream days.. It has to be No Sugar Added because they do have other kinds with higher calories, etc... I've also heard about a ice cream called Artic Zero that's suppose to be 150 calories per pint and 14grams of  protein. Haven't tried it yet, but am on the lookout for it. I've been trying to change my diet a bit so I don't get bored, so trying to find good sources of protien that are  low calories and sugar.. I went to Trader Joe's the other day and purchased a few items, chicken burgers, turkey burgers, I eat have of one usually for lunch and the other half for dinner. Not bad, easy to make and salad is already portioned out so it works out well.. I wanted to purchase the egg white salad but either they didn't have it or I just couldn't find it..

I've also changed my excercise up a bit. I'm doing program 4 and 3 one day and doing program 3 twice the next, on the day's I do program 3, I make the treadmill flat  put it on 4 mph and do 15 minute sprints every 30 secs and the last 15 mins I just walk at 4 mph. I will increase the time as time goes bye. My dream is to run, but I have a very bad foot from a old injury when I was a child, it easily breaks, and I have severe arthritis in it now, but I'm trying to give it a go. At least I can say I tried it.. Now! if I can just get my boobs from hurting afterwards that would be great, lol!!  Have a great day!

Monday, June 25, 2012


Hi guys!!  Again sorry  I've not posted much, but been having some health issues.. Band is doing fine, but now I have something wrong with my thyroid..  I'm going in tomorrow for a scan.. My dr. say's I have hyperthyroidism, which you would think with that I would be downt to a size 2, but nope wt is coming off very very slow to none..  I've been going up and down with the scale,which I know is all water.. THe heat makes me gain wt, because I retain water. So, today I am 177 and tomorrrow I'm sure I will be 178..  See, thats what I get for whating my first goal to be down to 175. I want to be 175 before I leave to go to my daughter's. That was my first goal. My real goal is 140 to 145, would love to get to 135 but that would just be a bonus..

 I've decided to go in next month and get a small fill. I've been eating my 1/2 cup portions and have not cheated once, but I've have noticed that I seem to want more food after eating then before.. I've also noticed that I'm hungry more and that's something I don't want.. I 've taken away 1 protein shake a day ( dr. said I should ) but I've not been able to make those calories up. Which concerns me. I've been eating less then 500 calories a day since taking away the protein shake so I don't want to eat that little.. Now with that said. I don't count my crystral light caloris or added calories like butter spray's, o/o, etc so I add an additonal 100 per day for those. So really I'm  eating around 500 to 600 per day. My dr. said nothing under 600 calories per day, so I really need to make up about 160 to 180 cal.  I've ordered some protein bars on line, so I hope they are good. I'm meeting my protein goals, 70 to 76 g per day so that's good.
I looked on line for the lowest calorie protein bars I could find and those were simple bars. They are 160 per bar which should fill in that 160 I miss from my protein shake. THey of course don't have the 30 gr of protein like the shake but they do have 16 gr so that's still good.  I got the variety pk so I sure hope I find one I like.. My dr. said I need solid food instead of the liquid. Since liquid is empty calories for band ppl.. So I'm working in trying to do everything exactly the way she wants me too..

I feel totally great though.. Little concerned over the thyroid but find it more weird then anything else. I've have fine labs all the way up to March.. My March labs came back completely fine which was 6 weeks after my surgery, then had labs done in end of May (new dr. ) they should something up with my thyroid, had then repeated in June to double check and they still showed thyroid off.. I asked if it could be the wt loss. I've had a fast wt loss in an short time and wondered if it could have sent my thyroid off, of course she didn't know. So, I've decided to see my fill dr. and she if she has any answers, but in the mean time I will take all the tests needed to get down to the bottom of what's going on..

Have a great week!

Friday, June 15, 2012


Wt today 179.. My wt isn't moving as fast as I would like it but it's moving, so that's the main thing.. Funny, how I didn't work out yesterday and still lost a pound..  I work out 6 day's a week and my days off very depending on what I need to do for the week.. I used to have Saturday's off, but now with dr, appts, nail day, etc I usual have a day off during the week.

Not much else here. I told you all before, I live a very boring life..

Have a great weekend,

Sunday, June 10, 2012


Hello Everyone!!

Beautiful but hot day today, so will be spending most of it inside...

Wt today is still 182, so no change their, but it will come..
I have noticed that I've been a little bit hungry then usual lately, but I have not gone off track once since getting the band and I sure won't now..
 I just saw my P. A and we both agreed no fill this time, so I don't go back until Sept now.. I hope I can go that long, if not I will have to call her. I just don't want to get a fill right now, because I am heading on vacation the end of July and don't want to be traveling with a new fill.. 
 I keep sticking to what my guildlines are and haven't gone off once, I'm real proud of that. It's hard sometimes, like yesterday.. My hubby and I went to the movies and he of course got a med popcorn (which you know med popcorn is really a large ) and soda, me; bottle water. I wanted a bite of popcorn but I didn't take it.. Those times I'm so proud of myself.. I'm so afraid of screwing up, or gaining wait I just won't go off track.. I can't!!

When I started this journey I sat down with my hubby and told him he was going to be on his own as far as food is concerned. I wasn't going to cook for him anymore ( unless he wanted to eat what I do ). I know that sounds bad, but I came to a decision that I for once was going to look after me for a change..I have looked after him and our daughter and it's now my turn.. He was great about it, he said " you do whatever you need to " so I am.. We go shopping for food together and he buys what he wants and I get what I need.. Of course he gets frozen pizza's, frozen foods, etc,by the way, my husband is approx 6 pounds over weight, makes me sick, lol! Anyway, he comes home from work, pops his stuff in the microwave and off he goes.. I of course have to smell all that stuff and that's hard. But I have noticed as the time goes by that sometimes the smell makes me feel sick.. I seem to be more sensitive to smells. Things I used to like, like garlic sometimes makes me sick.. The smell is just to strong now.. I eat pretty blend things, like protein and salads, or some kind of veggie so there's no season to it. Except for the tsp of salad dressing I have..
Do you find this?? that your more sensitive to certain smells?? 

Saturday, June 9, 2012


Hi Everyone!!

Sorry, it's been awhile.. I had a real bad sinus infection and then I had dr. appts regarding some bloodwork I got back.. I seem to be having a problem with my Thyroid, who knew?? Not me!! I feel great.. I still have some more bloodwork, but my dr. said it's hyperthyroidism , not hypo, so again who knew?? I'm hoping it is from my sinus infection or something viral.. I had a terrible sore throat and glands were swollen for about 2 weeks, but when I went to dr, he said it was part of the sinus infection. I went to another dr. who took blood and it came back with funky TSH.. My dr. said it could be viral so going to get more work done on friday.

My wt is 182. Which has slowed down some. Part is the heat.. I always retain water bad during the summer so I think the wt will slow down some for awhile..  But, I'm still losing and that's all that matters..

I hope every has a great weekend..

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Wedneday 5/30/12

Wt 186.. Good day for the wt loss.. I was stuck there for a few days but it's moving again.. Seems so common for me to go 6 days or so and the scale not move, then all of a sudden it does.. I keep doing what I am doing as far as food and excercise goes and I know the scale will move at some point.. Don't ever get discourged, keep doing what you are doing, the wt will come off....

I read a lot of  blogs and I marvel how some ppl can keep eating the same thing, but smaller portions and lose wt, and others can't.. I know if I ate the same foods that I used to but just at a smaller scale, I would never lose wt.. I know I needed and had to make a life change.. I needed to change everything about my diet.. Probably what I miss the most is going out to eat.. We would go 3 to 4 days a week, now it's like once every 2 to 3 weeks. It usually always on a Saturday and it's usually lunch.. I still don't feel good about eating the rt amounts of food when we go out, so I don't like to go to much..  See I'm not a place in my band where I feel full at a certain point. I stop eating because I measure all my food and I stop because the food is gone. I don't usually get hungry in between times, so that's why I don't need a fill right now. I'm losing wt just fine, but I do know when I set down to eat, I could probably eat more then what's on my plate, so I don't like to go out because I can't really control it, like I would like too.. I will get there, but I've only been doing this for a little and I need more practice..

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Tuesday 5/29/12

sorry, I've not written in a few days. But hubby was off these last 4 day's and we just hung out together..

Wt is still the same Wt 188.5.. I seem to go up .5 go down .5.. It will be like this for a week, at least I hope and then I will go down.. I think I go at least 6 days being the same wt, then I move.. Exspeically now that warm weather has hit.. The hotter it is the more water I retain..   I really want to get down to 175 before I leave for Mt at the end of July.. I've not mentioned before that I'm leaving to go be with my daughter as she is having a baby.. We will be having a grand son soon, so we are all excited.. We already have a grand daughter and she is truly amazing, so we are so lucky we now will have a grandson.. anyway, my daughter knows nothing about my wt loss. We skype all the time, but she hasn't mentioned anything.. I so want to surprise her.. I will probably tell her all about the band when I see her, but then again, who knows...  I'm not ashamed or anything, but sure don't want anyone being worried or anything so we will see what happens..

We had a very quiet memorial day.. We didn't do much, we didn't even bbq.. THe weather is has been hot and muggy so we felt like wet noodles for most the weekend, so neither one of us wanted to do much.. I really don't know how I'm going to keep up excercising in this heat??? I felt so sick after my work out yesterday, I couldn't stand it.. I try and make sure I have all my work out stuff done by 11 am so it's not all that bad, but being from Europe I just don't enjoy this kind of weather at all, actually I hate it. I've been lucky since moving to the U.S to live in states that aren't that bad for really hot weather.. I've lived in N. Ca., Washington State, Hawaii, Ill which could get hot, but not like here. The humidity is bloody awful!!  Awful I say!!  and I'm so ready to move. Anyway, I will keep excercising and hope it doesn't get the best of me..

Saturday, May 26, 2012


Got on the scale today and it said 188?? I have no idea how that happened, but I will take it. I also will wait and see what tomorrow brings..  I know I drank a lot and had a water pill but losing 3 pds in one day has never happened to me before.

It's getting warmer and warmer here and you have no idea how I hate the heat.. I really really hate the heat.. I grew up in the Uk and have lived most of my life in Europe, if it gets over 82 things shut down, so anything over 80 for me and I shut down.. It's going to be a long hot summer am afraid so not looking forward to it.. If anyone thinks that climate change isn't really, sorry but I think they need to get their head examined.. Yes!!  I know I might offend some, but that's ok. You don't need to read my blogs either.. I do believe in climate change, I do believe we have should protect our earth.. Why not?? what harm could we do if we decided to look out for it..

I hope everyone has a safe fun weekend.. Happy Memorial Day to everyone!! 

Friday, May 25, 2012


Wt 191, just 1 more pound to go and I would have lost 60 pounds from my surgery date ( feb 8th, 2012 ) just unbelievable to me.. I only have about 46 more pounds to go until I reach my goal.. When I started this journey I kept saying to myself it will take forever to lose 105 pounds ( 119 if your counting from my heaviest). I never thought I would be over half way there, I thought it would take me years to get here.. The goal doesn't seem so far now, I feel so great and happy.. I proud of myself for only having 2.5 cc in my band. For relying on myself to lose not my band..  I know I can do this now. I know I can..

Hope everyone has a great weekend.. Stay safe!!

Thursday, May 24, 2012


Wt 191.5, totally don't get why I'm losing so fast, but sure am not going to complain.

Yesterday I saw my P. A and all is well there, so well don't have to go back until Sept and no fill, so that's great!

Had to get a new primary care dr. because is moving out of state. So saw new one yesterday as well and hate him.. But, don't have time to look for a new one, so will he will do until I can..

I've been reading so many band blogs and everyone keeps talking about restriction like that is the only thing they are looking for. I don't understand it??  We are suppose to have portion control, the restriction isn't the only thing.. You are suppose to eat between 1/4 to 1 cup of food per meal.. Are you eating until you are full regardless of portion size?? How do you lose wt that way??  I don't understand. My dr. never said to me, you get the band and you eat until you are full.. They said, with the band it's still portion control no more then 1 cup of food per meal and a snack if you totals for the day is still low.. I don't eat until I am full. I eat 1/2 cup of food and no more. I eat 3 meals a day, with 2 protein shakes inbetween brk and dinner and maybe a snack around 8 pm, which is usually a WW cheese stick.. I don't get how anyone expects to lose eating the same foods, just smaller amounts or eat same foods, but they eat until full. Isn't that how we got here to begin with?? I new at all this, but I had wt classes, I has food classes 6 months of them. I just don't understand waiting for restriction.. Maybe it's me?? I don't know, but just trying to understand..

Wednesday, May 23, 2012


 Today's wt  193 ( but dr's office had me at 19, which us the first time that has happened, they usuallly have me 2 to 3 pds heavier because of course they weigh me with clothes on ).

Today I visited my P.A or my fill lady as I call her.. All is well, no fill  today.. I have lost 20 pds in the 5 weeks since last visit, so she say's keep doing what I am doing and instead of coming back in the 4 to 6 weeks  (that they usually recommend) I don't have to come back until Sept. She said if I feel  like I need her before then, then by all means call, but since everything is fine I'm good to go..  I am really happy.. I don't know if I'm in the zone or sweet spot some talk about. I have talked with my P.A a lot about that.She has told me time and time again that the biggest mistake ppl have with the band is relying to much on it. She say's ppl wait and want the band to do all the work and she say's the band can't do that. It can help you, but it can't do it all. So that's what I've tried to do. Not rely on it. When I'm hungry between meal time, I move, I read, I go for a walk, I call someone and before you know it I realize I wasn't that hungry to begin with and it's already close to my meal time. It's amazing how your mind works. I don't focus on food anymore ( or at least try not to) . I am lucky that I don't have little ones at home anymore so I don't have to cook for them and actually now I don't cook at all. My husband goes shopping with me now.  He buys what he wants to eat and I buy what I eat, he cooks his food and I cook mine.. I can't believe how everything he eats comes out of box, like pizza, pasta, tv dinners etc and he has lost wt, it's so unfair.. I would never be able to eat what he eats and loose like him, never..   We talked about this when I was going through the process. I told him that this was going to be all about me and I wasn't going to cook for him and look a food I know longer can eat.. He was fine with it, even though he  misses my cooking.. I hope at some point when I have all this figured out and can control my food better that I will be able to go back to cooking and  making healthier choices..

Tuesday, May 22, 2012


Today's wt 194.
Happy with that but will see what tomorrows wt is before I get to excited.. I take a water pill every other day, so the day's I do take it I lose more then the day's  I  don't.

I see my P.A tomorrow so I know she will be happy with my results because the last time I saw her I was 211 and that was on 4/20 do I've lost 17 pounds in almost 1 month, awesome!!   I know I am working real hard at it, but I've also noticed the smaller I'm becoming the faster the wt is coming off.. I was losing from the beginning about 10 per month. I seem to be losing a bit faster now, which is great. I will have to wt and see what next month brings me..

I've read a few wt loss blogs talking about telling family members or not about their band..
I haven't told anyone except my hubby and mother.. My mother I told 2 weeks after having the band.. I wish I never said anything to her, because my mother and I have this love, hate relationship going.. I was brought up that little girls are seen but not heard, but that just wasn't me. I wanted to be heard and made it a point to be heard. My mother  has no filter on her mouth so she can be very hurtful without ever really knowing it.. When she hurts me or say's something that bothers me, I let her know which of course always ends up in a fight. Because she is the mother and I am the daughter and what she say's goes..  She was mad at me for not telling her about my surgery. Which I told her I didn't what any Criticism  from her or anyone and that this was my decision and mine alone.  I told my hubby I was having it, I also told him not to say anything. I checked into it, I researched and researched and this is what I choose to do, so he was not allowed to say anything. I know that sounds mean, but he understood and trusted me to make the right decision for me..  Anyway, within  1 day of telling my mom the you couldn't have done this on your own came out and I went crazy.. I told her that this was exactly why I didn't want to tell her to start with and that if she continued to say things like this, we were done.. I just can't play this game with her anymore. I'm to old, to tired, to do this with her and I just good things in my life.. I want the criticism gone out of my life and she is huge part of that criticism, I've never felt good enough with her,so it's time for it all to stop.

So how many told family members?? Friends?? Co workers?? 

Monday, May 21, 2012


Today's weigh in 195.  Yes! I weigh myself everyday.. I don't get upset if I've gained a pound one day, because I know it could be water wt.. I know I've not gone off track so the weight will come off at some point..  I like to know were I am so weighing myself everyday is a big help to me and it also gives me something to look forward to in the morning.. I did my work out this morning as well, so that's done for the day..

Do you log your food and excercise?? I do!! I find it really really helps me stay on track and see where I'm at. It also makes sure I don't eat to little.. I can keep track and know it I need to add calories or take away.. It's so important to me keep on track and keeping a log book keeps honest and makes me face my day..

Have a great Monday everyone!!

Sunday, May 20, 2012

The beginning!!

Well, today is my first day blogging. Let me get a few things out first.. I'm not a great speller or my grammer isn't the best, but I will do my best and if it doesn't meet up to your standards, in advance, sorry!

I was lapband on 2/08/12, so my journey is fairly new..  My heavest wt was 264 and my wt the day of surgery was 250. As of my surgery date I now weight 196.. I still have a way to go, but I know I will get there..  I don't have any real tricks other then I listen to my dr. my p.a. and my dietican and I don't go off track. As much as I would love to, I don't!   I eat on small plates, I eat 1/2 cup of food per meal and I have 1 snack in the evening at 8 pm ( which is usually WW string cheese ).  I eat no pasta, bread, rice, or sugar.. Is it hard? hell yes!!  but I knew what I was getting into before I started. Those were my condition before I was banded and my agreement to myself that if I was going to do this, then I would listen to what my surgerical team said and not deveate from it.  It has been hard a times, but the more the weeks go on the easier it gets.. I feel so much better, I move better, I'm happier, and that's what counts. I've had 2 fills with a total of 2.5cc filled so far.. It's not much, but it works for me. I want this to be about me not my band. I don't want to rely on my band for making me full, I want to stop eating when I've eating my portion. The band can not make me excercise, which I do 5 to 6 days a week for an hour. The band can't put healthy, good for me foods into my mouth only I can do that. This is up to me to fix, not my band.. The band is my tool, it's there if I really really need it, but instead of eating a whole plate of food, I now can eat 1/2 cups of food and feel good about it and not be too hungry after. Do I get hungry?? yeah! sometimes I do, but I usually will drink something, or go do something, and by the time I've finished the drink or finish what I'm doing I find I'm not hungry after all..

So my advice to all those out there.. Listen to your team of dr's. I know full well that not all lapband dr's say the same thing, that's ok.. Do what yours says so they can work with you and help you..

I wish all out there well on your journey.. 
and we can do this together..