Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Wedneday 5/30/12

Wt 186.. Good day for the wt loss.. I was stuck there for a few days but it's moving again.. Seems so common for me to go 6 days or so and the scale not move, then all of a sudden it does.. I keep doing what I am doing as far as food and excercise goes and I know the scale will move at some point.. Don't ever get discourged, keep doing what you are doing, the wt will come off....

I read a lot of  blogs and I marvel how some ppl can keep eating the same thing, but smaller portions and lose wt, and others can't.. I know if I ate the same foods that I used to but just at a smaller scale, I would never lose wt.. I know I needed and had to make a life change.. I needed to change everything about my diet.. Probably what I miss the most is going out to eat.. We would go 3 to 4 days a week, now it's like once every 2 to 3 weeks. It usually always on a Saturday and it's usually lunch.. I still don't feel good about eating the rt amounts of food when we go out, so I don't like to go to much..  See I'm not a place in my band where I feel full at a certain point. I stop eating because I measure all my food and I stop because the food is gone. I don't usually get hungry in between times, so that's why I don't need a fill right now. I'm losing wt just fine, but I do know when I set down to eat, I could probably eat more then what's on my plate, so I don't like to go out because I can't really control it, like I would like too.. I will get there, but I've only been doing this for a little and I need more practice..

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Tuesday 5/29/12

sorry, I've not written in a few days. But hubby was off these last 4 day's and we just hung out together..

Wt is still the same Wt 188.5.. I seem to go up .5 go down .5.. It will be like this for a week, at least I hope and then I will go down.. I think I go at least 6 days being the same wt, then I move.. Exspeically now that warm weather has hit.. The hotter it is the more water I retain..   I really want to get down to 175 before I leave for Mt at the end of July.. I've not mentioned before that I'm leaving to go be with my daughter as she is having a baby.. We will be having a grand son soon, so we are all excited.. We already have a grand daughter and she is truly amazing, so we are so lucky we now will have a grandson.. anyway, my daughter knows nothing about my wt loss. We skype all the time, but she hasn't mentioned anything.. I so want to surprise her.. I will probably tell her all about the band when I see her, but then again, who knows...  I'm not ashamed or anything, but sure don't want anyone being worried or anything so we will see what happens..

We had a very quiet memorial day.. We didn't do much, we didn't even bbq.. THe weather is has been hot and muggy so we felt like wet noodles for most the weekend, so neither one of us wanted to do much.. I really don't know how I'm going to keep up excercising in this heat??? I felt so sick after my work out yesterday, I couldn't stand it.. I try and make sure I have all my work out stuff done by 11 am so it's not all that bad, but being from Europe I just don't enjoy this kind of weather at all, actually I hate it. I've been lucky since moving to the U.S to live in states that aren't that bad for really hot weather.. I've lived in N. Ca., Washington State, Hawaii, Ill which could get hot, but not like here. The humidity is bloody awful!!  Awful I say!!  and I'm so ready to move. Anyway, I will keep excercising and hope it doesn't get the best of me..

Saturday, May 26, 2012


Got on the scale today and it said 188?? I have no idea how that happened, but I will take it. I also will wait and see what tomorrow brings..  I know I drank a lot and had a water pill but losing 3 pds in one day has never happened to me before.

It's getting warmer and warmer here and you have no idea how I hate the heat.. I really really hate the heat.. I grew up in the Uk and have lived most of my life in Europe, if it gets over 82 things shut down, so anything over 80 for me and I shut down.. It's going to be a long hot summer am afraid so not looking forward to it.. If anyone thinks that climate change isn't really, sorry but I think they need to get their head examined.. Yes!!  I know I might offend some, but that's ok. You don't need to read my blogs either.. I do believe in climate change, I do believe we have should protect our earth.. Why not?? what harm could we do if we decided to look out for it..

I hope everyone has a safe fun weekend.. Happy Memorial Day to everyone!! 

Friday, May 25, 2012


Wt 191, just 1 more pound to go and I would have lost 60 pounds from my surgery date ( feb 8th, 2012 ) just unbelievable to me.. I only have about 46 more pounds to go until I reach my goal.. When I started this journey I kept saying to myself it will take forever to lose 105 pounds ( 119 if your counting from my heaviest). I never thought I would be over half way there, I thought it would take me years to get here.. The goal doesn't seem so far now, I feel so great and happy.. I proud of myself for only having 2.5 cc in my band. For relying on myself to lose not my band..  I know I can do this now. I know I can..

Hope everyone has a great weekend.. Stay safe!!

Thursday, May 24, 2012


Wt 191.5, totally don't get why I'm losing so fast, but sure am not going to complain.

Yesterday I saw my P. A and all is well there, so well don't have to go back until Sept and no fill, so that's great!

Had to get a new primary care dr. because is moving out of state. So saw new one yesterday as well and hate him.. But, don't have time to look for a new one, so will he will do until I can..

I've been reading so many band blogs and everyone keeps talking about restriction like that is the only thing they are looking for. I don't understand it??  We are suppose to have portion control, the restriction isn't the only thing.. You are suppose to eat between 1/4 to 1 cup of food per meal.. Are you eating until you are full regardless of portion size?? How do you lose wt that way??  I don't understand. My dr. never said to me, you get the band and you eat until you are full.. They said, with the band it's still portion control no more then 1 cup of food per meal and a snack if you totals for the day is still low.. I don't eat until I am full. I eat 1/2 cup of food and no more. I eat 3 meals a day, with 2 protein shakes inbetween brk and dinner and maybe a snack around 8 pm, which is usually a WW cheese stick.. I don't get how anyone expects to lose eating the same foods, just smaller amounts or eat same foods, but they eat until full. Isn't that how we got here to begin with?? I new at all this, but I had wt classes, I has food classes 6 months of them. I just don't understand waiting for restriction.. Maybe it's me?? I don't know, but just trying to understand..

Wednesday, May 23, 2012


 Today's wt  193 ( but dr's office had me at 19, which us the first time that has happened, they usuallly have me 2 to 3 pds heavier because of course they weigh me with clothes on ).

Today I visited my P.A or my fill lady as I call her.. All is well, no fill  today.. I have lost 20 pds in the 5 weeks since last visit, so she say's keep doing what I am doing and instead of coming back in the 4 to 6 weeks  (that they usually recommend) I don't have to come back until Sept. She said if I feel  like I need her before then, then by all means call, but since everything is fine I'm good to go..  I am really happy.. I don't know if I'm in the zone or sweet spot some talk about. I have talked with my P.A a lot about that.She has told me time and time again that the biggest mistake ppl have with the band is relying to much on it. She say's ppl wait and want the band to do all the work and she say's the band can't do that. It can help you, but it can't do it all. So that's what I've tried to do. Not rely on it. When I'm hungry between meal time, I move, I read, I go for a walk, I call someone and before you know it I realize I wasn't that hungry to begin with and it's already close to my meal time. It's amazing how your mind works. I don't focus on food anymore ( or at least try not to) . I am lucky that I don't have little ones at home anymore so I don't have to cook for them and actually now I don't cook at all. My husband goes shopping with me now.  He buys what he wants to eat and I buy what I eat, he cooks his food and I cook mine.. I can't believe how everything he eats comes out of box, like pizza, pasta, tv dinners etc and he has lost wt, it's so unfair.. I would never be able to eat what he eats and loose like him, never..   We talked about this when I was going through the process. I told him that this was going to be all about me and I wasn't going to cook for him and look a food I know longer can eat.. He was fine with it, even though he  misses my cooking.. I hope at some point when I have all this figured out and can control my food better that I will be able to go back to cooking and  making healthier choices..

Tuesday, May 22, 2012


Today's wt 194.
Happy with that but will see what tomorrows wt is before I get to excited.. I take a water pill every other day, so the day's I do take it I lose more then the day's  I  don't.

I see my P.A tomorrow so I know she will be happy with my results because the last time I saw her I was 211 and that was on 4/20 do I've lost 17 pounds in almost 1 month, awesome!!   I know I am working real hard at it, but I've also noticed the smaller I'm becoming the faster the wt is coming off.. I was losing from the beginning about 10 per month. I seem to be losing a bit faster now, which is great. I will have to wt and see what next month brings me..

I've read a few wt loss blogs talking about telling family members or not about their band..
I haven't told anyone except my hubby and mother.. My mother I told 2 weeks after having the band.. I wish I never said anything to her, because my mother and I have this love, hate relationship going.. I was brought up that little girls are seen but not heard, but that just wasn't me. I wanted to be heard and made it a point to be heard. My mother  has no filter on her mouth so she can be very hurtful without ever really knowing it.. When she hurts me or say's something that bothers me, I let her know which of course always ends up in a fight. Because she is the mother and I am the daughter and what she say's goes..  She was mad at me for not telling her about my surgery. Which I told her I didn't what any Criticism  from her or anyone and that this was my decision and mine alone.  I told my hubby I was having it, I also told him not to say anything. I checked into it, I researched and researched and this is what I choose to do, so he was not allowed to say anything. I know that sounds mean, but he understood and trusted me to make the right decision for me..  Anyway, within  1 day of telling my mom the you couldn't have done this on your own came out and I went crazy.. I told her that this was exactly why I didn't want to tell her to start with and that if she continued to say things like this, we were done.. I just can't play this game with her anymore. I'm to old, to tired, to do this with her and I just good things in my life.. I want the criticism gone out of my life and she is huge part of that criticism, I've never felt good enough with her,so it's time for it all to stop.

So how many told family members?? Friends?? Co workers?? 

Monday, May 21, 2012


Today's weigh in 195.  Yes! I weigh myself everyday.. I don't get upset if I've gained a pound one day, because I know it could be water wt.. I know I've not gone off track so the weight will come off at some point..  I like to know were I am so weighing myself everyday is a big help to me and it also gives me something to look forward to in the morning.. I did my work out this morning as well, so that's done for the day..

Do you log your food and excercise?? I do!! I find it really really helps me stay on track and see where I'm at. It also makes sure I don't eat to little.. I can keep track and know it I need to add calories or take away.. It's so important to me keep on track and keeping a log book keeps honest and makes me face my day..

Have a great Monday everyone!!

Sunday, May 20, 2012

The beginning!!

Well, today is my first day blogging. Let me get a few things out first.. I'm not a great speller or my grammer isn't the best, but I will do my best and if it doesn't meet up to your standards, in advance, sorry!

I was lapband on 2/08/12, so my journey is fairly new..  My heavest wt was 264 and my wt the day of surgery was 250. As of my surgery date I now weight 196.. I still have a way to go, but I know I will get there..  I don't have any real tricks other then I listen to my dr. my p.a. and my dietican and I don't go off track. As much as I would love to, I don't!   I eat on small plates, I eat 1/2 cup of food per meal and I have 1 snack in the evening at 8 pm ( which is usually WW string cheese ).  I eat no pasta, bread, rice, or sugar.. Is it hard? hell yes!!  but I knew what I was getting into before I started. Those were my condition before I was banded and my agreement to myself that if I was going to do this, then I would listen to what my surgerical team said and not deveate from it.  It has been hard a times, but the more the weeks go on the easier it gets.. I feel so much better, I move better, I'm happier, and that's what counts. I've had 2 fills with a total of 2.5cc filled so far.. It's not much, but it works for me. I want this to be about me not my band. I don't want to rely on my band for making me full, I want to stop eating when I've eating my portion. The band can not make me excercise, which I do 5 to 6 days a week for an hour. The band can't put healthy, good for me foods into my mouth only I can do that. This is up to me to fix, not my band.. The band is my tool, it's there if I really really need it, but instead of eating a whole plate of food, I now can eat 1/2 cups of food and feel good about it and not be too hungry after. Do I get hungry?? yeah! sometimes I do, but I usually will drink something, or go do something, and by the time I've finished the drink or finish what I'm doing I find I'm not hungry after all..

So my advice to all those out there.. Listen to your team of dr's. I know full well that not all lapband dr's say the same thing, that's ok.. Do what yours says so they can work with you and help you..

I wish all out there well on your journey.. 
and we can do this together..