11/08/12

Todays Wt 134

I'm still trying to figure out why on day's I don't work out, I lose more wt then the days I do..

Example:  On 11/1 woke up and my wt was 138. I didn't work out and on 11/2 I woke up and weighed 136.5. I 11/2 I worked out woke up 11/3 and my wt was 138. I worked out 11/3 wt on 11/4 was 136. Worked out on 11/4 woke up on 11/5 wt was 137.5. Worked out 11/5 woke up 11/6 wt was 137. Didn't work out 11/6 or 11/7 woke up this morning and my wt was 134?????    I seem to lose more when not working out then when I do.. It's so odd to me.. It's also not very helpful to feel that you workout isn't doing anything but making you gain or stay where you are. Yet, when you don't work out you lose.
I understand the water wt, I get that, but not how I can lose 2.5 pds in two days, especially since I take a water pill everyday anyway..

Don't get me wrong I love the loss, even though I'm not trying to lose anymore.. I just want to understand what my body is doing so I can keep my motivation for excercising going..

10/21/12

I did it!!!!   I hit my goal yesterday, so excited!

First let me go over my stats..

I starte pre liquid diet Jan 25 2012
I had lapband surgery Feb 8th 2012

My highest wt was 264
My wt day of surgery 250
My first goal wt was 145/ then I changed it to 140 which I met on 10/20/12

So I've lost a total of 124 pds from my heaviest and
I've lost a total of  110 pds from surgery


I can't believe I'm here. It's been hard at times, not so hard at other times. I have tried to reflect on the how's and why's of my journey. How I got heavy? I was never one of these ppl who binge ate or someone who could eat a whole of anything. I ate 3 meals a day and a snack at 8 pm. I only had desserts on Saturday. I think most of my problem came from going out to eat a lot and the volume of food I would eat. I always would try and pick healthy choices but I also would eat more then I should of the meal.. I also never excercised. I'm very much a home body, still am so moving myself only happend on weekends. Yes! I cleaned my house and did those things but never much more then that..

I'm still reflecting, trying to learn, try to change the how's and why's so I never ever go back to 264.

Very Very grateful for my band

9/23/12

Hello!!

Wt today 147.5.. I only have 2.5 pds to go to get to my first long time goal, then only 7.5 pds to get to my new goal wt.. I have lost since my heaviest in Jan 2012, 116.5 pds and a total of 102.5 since my surgery on Feb 8th 2012.   It's been so life changing for me.. I have been overwhelmed at times, especially when it comes to clothes. I cleaned out my closet and had a major melt down because nothing fit and I was left with nothing but a few things in my closet. I had no winter coats, no dress clothes, no sweaters, it's so overwhelming to think of the money I now need to spend to get those things.. Some of my clothes have memories attached to them so letting them go was very hard and some I just loved.. I also am having a hard time finding what looks good on me..  I spend most of my adult life wearing clothes that were to big on me, because I didn't like to wear clothes that were to tight to show my fat. So now I'm trying to go more fitted and it's hard.. I so need a stylist, lol!! I'm really not complaining, it's just that I didn't expect to lose this much wt so fast and right before the holiday's. It's just a lot all at once, but I will figure it all out..

Not much else going on.. Hope everyone is having a great Sunday


Take care

9/17.12

Hi!!

Sorry, I've not written in awhile, but to be honest I was waiting for something to happen to write about and today is the day..

Well, today I met my dr. wt loss goal for me. He wanted me to get to 150 and here I am.. I'm so excited I wanted so bad to call his office to tell him, but  didn't want to look stupid.

So, this means I have lost 114 pounds from heaviest and 100 pounds from surgery..So so excited!!  I only have 10 pounds to go.. Unreal!!!  This Wednesday I will be banded 32 weeks, so made his goal in just a few days short of 8 months..  Unbelieveable!! 

What a journey this has been and will continue to be.. Real happy with everything and feel real good too, so that's  more important then anything.. I'm not that sad fat girl anymore.. Think I'm finally finding myself again and to be truthful, I've miss her so much.. 

I wish everyone mush success in your journey as well..

ON Wards and Up Wards..

9/7/12

OMG!!  I got on the scale this  morning and it said, 153.5, yeap that's right 153.5! can't believe it.. I haven't worked out in two days and I still lost. Unbelieveable! Very happy. Of course I didn't go back on the scale and double check it. I saw the number a jumped off and got all excited, that was enough for me, lol! SO, I just have 3.5 pds to go until I reach the goal the dr. set for me. So I'm a happy camper this morning..

Today, I will work out and do my usual workout. So we will see what tomorrow brings.

Have a great weekend everyone!!

9/6/12

Today's wt 154.5..  Excited that I'm moving down at some..  I saw my P. A yesterday and she put in 08cc in my band do now I'm at 4.3 cc's.. Totally think this is going to be it for awhile.. Feel a little tight which is good, it's what I wanted but not to tight where it's uncomfortable. She say's I have done so well, that I could start to increase my food a bit to 1 cup.. I told her I wasn't going to do that until I met my goal. Once goal is met I plan I staying at 1 cup for maintenance. She said that was fine, but at least increase my proteins, since my labs came back and I'm real short on protein, which is wierd becuase I've been eating on average between 75 to 95 grans a day anyway. Labs showd my cholesterol whas up so I have to work on that, which I don't get, but oh well labs don't lie.. All I eat is protein and fruits and veggies so how it went up confuses me.. 

I'm on liquids just for 24 hours so I have until 3 pm today, so that's not to bad. They don't require a messy stage, but I like to do just to be safe. So I will watch what I eat until 3 pm friday..

So numbers.

My heaviest 264
Wt day of surgery 250
current wt 154.5
so I've lost a total of 109.5 from my heaviest
I've lost 95.5 from surgery
I'm 4.5 pds away from my dr. goal wt for me
and I'm 14.5 pds away from mine, well actually my goal wt had orginally been 145 so that's 9.5 pds away but I changed it just to be below my bmi not on the edge, so we will see..

8/30/12

Finally hit 155.5, just down .5 from but still down..

I did change my floor workouts a bit, now today I can't move my legs.. I also decided to cut back 1 day a week on excercise, so today I'm not working out.. I going to try and not work out on Thursday's and Saturday's as they are my busy day's of the week..  I really feel that 5 days a week is better for me. My body was real tired after 6 day work outs, so I will give this a try and see how my wt and body feels.


Have a good one!! 

8/29/12

I'm so frustated!!!!  My wt just doesn't seem to be moving at all.. I keep being between 156 to 157, today, 157..
Every Wednesday I do my totals. How much I've lost since heaviest, how much lost since surgery, how much lost for the week. This week it was up 0.5, that's the first time this has ever happened to me. I have always either lost wt or stayed the same, never gone up any. Now, .5 is nothing and I bet if I go upstairs rt now and weighed myself it would be down .5 but I still don't like it.
My dr. goal for me is 150 and  I just want to get there.. It's going on 3 weeks and the scales have not moved, just don't get it.. I still eating between 600 to 800 cal. I'm working out 5 day's a week, ( which is different, was doing 6 days, but I must say I feel a lot better, those 6 day's drained me )..
I think part of the problem is, I'm working out fine, 1 hour on treadmill and doing wts, pilates, floor excercises and rope, but I'm not really moving any other time.. Unless of course I'm cleaning house, or taking the dog out, etc.. I need to move more.. I have been real hungry since back from vacation, but I've not gone off my diet.. I do eat Artic Zero at night around 7 pm, I don't eat anything passed 8pm, but that's only 50 cal for 1/2 cup. The serving sizes say's 37 cal for 1/2c cup, but they say the pint gets 4 servings out of it, but when I do it and scoop out 1/2 cup I only get 3 servings out of it, so I just add the difference... It's easier to make sure my calories correct..

Well, thats it for today, be being bummed over .5 pds, too bad I never got bummed over all the wt I gained over the years, lol!!

8/27/12

Getting so frustated about my wt.. It's still hanging around 156 to 157, why??? I'm still doing everything I'm suppose too. I've not gone off the diet or cheated once, so don't get it. Maybe part of it was I was on vacation and didn't stop once. Now I'm home I have more time just chilling, I don't know but I see the dr next week so we will see what happens. I know part  of it is me not being patient too.  I have lost 12.5 since being vacation so that's real good, just don't like have the scales have not really moved since I've been home..

I am working out 5 days a week.. I even ran 30 mins yesterday with 1 min runs, which was new for me. I usually do 30 sec runs and walk 30 secs but yesterday I did 1 min runs with 1 min walks, felt good..

Today, will be doing laundry, come light cleaning and excercise, not the funniest day on the planet but it's another day.

Happy Monday!!

P.S  I did buy my first pair of size 8 jeans over the weekend.. I little tight but not too tight you can't ware them. I got two pairs and the second pair fits better then the first, so onwards and upwards we go..



wt today 156.5

8/24/12

Happy Friday!!

Well again I'm stuck between 156.5 and 158.. Since I've been back from vacation that's where I've been.. I don't understand why, but it's the truth.. I'm eating like I always do, I'm excercising 5 day's a week, yes! I cut back one day, but I noticed my body feels better at 5 day work out, so I guess I can only keep doing what I'm doing and see.. I see the P. A on the 5th so we will see.. I know I want a fill because since I've been back I've been so hungry, I could eat just about anything. I've not gone off course except maybe eating a pickle with my dinner, but the pickle had no calories so not sure how that works.. Not sure how a pickle can not have calories since cucumbers do????  but I ate one along with a 1/4 cup of salad and 2 oz of mahi burger patty ( Love those they are 140 cal for the whole 4 oz patty and I have half for lunch and half for dinner ) for my dinner, so the pickle was the only thing I ate that was different. I know I have done well with my diet.. I've lost a complete 107.5 pounds from my heaviest give or take depending on the wt for the day and 93.5  from surgery which was Feb 8th 2012 so not bad at all, so guess I really can't complain. The cooler weather is coming too so that will help with water retension too.. Plus I'm not moving around as much as I was when we where on vacation. I didn't seat down hardly at all the whole time we were gone, so I had good work outs.. I'm working out over 600 cal burned each day I work out, with 550 to 620 cal ( not including crystal light drinks which is around 4 to 6 a day ) intake for the day. So most day's I am working out more cal burned then eating which is good right????  Not sure how this all works. The cal burned does not include the times I workout on the floor, wts, rope or do my pilates machine which I do the before I get on the treadmill.. I do 50 sets each on pilates machine, I do 40 sets on the floor and 40 sets with the wts, and 30 sets with the rope, so not sure how much I burn with those..  Well, speaking for excercise need to go work out..

Have  a great weekend

8/22/12

Wow!!! today is my 28th week from surgery.. Can't believe it.. It's been 7 months all ready..

Since that time I have lost a total of 107.5 pounds from my heaviest and 93.5 pounds from surgery.. I feel so much better, lighter, healthier, happier, the only down side is the wrinkles, lol!! guess having all that fat makes your skin streached out so the wrinkles aren't there, now they're there, but that's ok..

I've gone from taking 13 pills a day to 4 ( not including vits ). I'm in  a solid 10 pant, large to xl shirt, probably could fit into a med, but like my tops a bit on the loose side.. I'm just real happy where I am.. I love how much happier I am.. I hated myself before. I never left the house, never wanted to go or do anything because I was still ashamed of how I looked.. I still feel that way sometimes, a lot has to do with the fact that starting at the age of 29 I starting losing my hair.. I'm now have very little hair on top of my head, but you know what?? now I don't care anymore.. It still bothers me at times and I go back and forth as to weather or not I want to buy a wig, but right now I'm not going to worry about it. Right now I'm enjoying the wt lose and loving every second of it.  I can't do anything about my hair other then the wig, but I'm healthy and that's all that matters to me right now.. I will deal with my hair another day.

8/20/12

Well, life is back to semi normal.. Been busy getting house in order after our vacation. Laundry done, house semi clean, animals back to semi normal.. Our cat has been sick all day today, not sure why?? will keep an eye open and see if I need to take her to the vet.. THink it might be over eating. I don't think they feed her at the kennel like we do, so we will see.

WT.. Since I've been back I have been from 156.5 to 158. Seems the cooler the weather, the smaller the number.. So back retaining water as usual. When we were in Mt, didn't retain water at all, even though it was hot, it wasn't humid there like here so that's the reason I'm sticking too, lol!! 

I worked out for the first time since being back. Did my pilates machine, did some floor stuff and 1 hr on the treadmill. I left my wts and rope in the truck so will have to do those later  when hubby gets home.. I did walk everyday while in Mt, so really the only time I didn't do anything was the three day's it took to get there and three day's it took to get home, so I walked every day for 14 days, so that's still pretty good. Let's not mentions the walking we did at the national parks, taking grand daughter to park and yellowstone, so all in all feel pretty good that I still lost 7 pounds while gone and kept up some kind of excercise..

Not much else going on today.. Have to head out and pick up a few things, work out is done and out of the way, so have the rest of the day to myself until hubby arrives from work.

Hope everyone is having a great Monday

8/15/12

Hello Everyone!!

Back from vacation.. Had a wonderful time with my daughter and grandkids, just sad to leave them behind.. I so wish we weren't so far away, but working on trying to get closer..

Well, today I weighed 158.5, which means I lost 7 pounds on vacation.. Yeppeeeeeeeeeee!!! So proud of myself.. I did't go off course not once..I counted everything I ate and drank and didn't get one thing I wasn't suppose too.. It was hard, but that's ok, nothing in life that's worth anything is easy.. I'm in a sold size 10.. I had to go out and buy some clothes when I first arrived,  because I just purchased some clothes for the trip before I left, but didn't try them back on until I got there. Well, I put them on and they fell off.. So had to run out and get some stuff, shame isn't it? Lol!


Well, I don't have much to say right now, because we just got back yesterday and I'm tired and have loads of laundry to do..

I will say, my daughter cried when she saw me ( she still doesn't know about the surgery ) because she thought I was sick and had lost wt because I had something wrong with me.. It was so sweet and so loving of her..


 Take care,

7/25/12

Still hanging around 166.5 again seems I go up a pound then back down.. I'm not conerned or worried, I'm doing everything I am suppose to, haven't gone off track not once since I got the band, so think the differences are water wt..  Still very happy with it. My plan was to get to 175 before I left for vacation which is Friday ( tomorrow busy packing, gettng things ready for trip ) so I really almost lost 10 pounds more so can't complain at all.. 

I have been thinking lately how much of my life is about counting.. I count calories, carbs, protein,oz's, reps, sugars, how much I burn, etc.I spend my whole day counting something. I don't ever seem to stop, kinda of funny really..

I won't be posting when I'm on vacation so this will be my last post for awhile..

wish me luck.. I'm so scaried I will go off track.. I've tried to make sure I stay as close to my diet as I possible can. I'm headed to the store either today or tomorrow to pick up carrots,celery, tomatoes, for out trip. I've already put my jerky in 1 oz servings so they are ready to go.. Not taking any chips or anything like that. I thought migh pick up some single pkgs of nuts to have for my evening snack, but a bit worried about the salt and travel.. So we will see. I will have my w/w string cheese with me, so that might be the better opition for me.

Well, have a great few weeks.

7/21/12

Happy Saturday!!  Just a quick stop in today since it's Saturday and Saturday's are always date day with hubby..

Wt 167. Only 3 more pounds to go and I've lost 100.. Don't think I can get the 3 off before I leave so I might be hanging around this wt for sometime since I leave on Friday for Vacation..  Hope not, but I'm not going to worry about it.. I want to enjoy my vacation without to much worry about the scale. I will not go off my meal plan, but I'm just not sure about the excercise.. Hopefully, walking and playing with grandkids will help with that..

Well, have a great weekend..

7/19/12

Hello!!

Wt still 169..  I had my 6 month check up yesterday.. It went great.. My dietician was really happy with my results and she said for a band pt, I'm doing extremely well at this point of my process.. My excercise guy, said he has never seen a band pt lose so much at this point.. He was blown away.. I told him I've known ppl who have done it, but he said he hasn't so just allow him to be proud of me, thought that was nice.. I decided to get fill, been having small issues and I just wanted .5cc put in, well the dr didn't listen to me and she put in 1cc and I didn't know it until after it was all done.. She said she could go back in and take some out and I told her to leave it alone. I sometimes think my P. A is a bit of a scatter brain.. She confuses me when she talks because she is always messing up and having to explain herself and then I get lost it what she is trying to say. I find it annoying.. 
I have noticed a huge difference with this 1cc in. Not sure I like it.. I really have to slow down now. I'm on liquids for 24hrs, that's it.. They don't require mushies after the liquid stage, so I have until 4 pm today.. We will see what happens when I eat.. I need to figure this out before I go on vacation.. It feels really tight and uncomfortable right now so not sure I want to feel that way on vacation. I wanted a little fill because I was being to not be satisfied with my food. I was hungry more and more often and I just don't want to get off track..
But this feels to tight.. I'm not having to much of an issue drinking, but I have noticed I need to slow it down, have few sips and wait awhile longer during sips, so maybe that's a good thing??  I will give it tell the weekend and if I don't feel better by Monday I will call. I leave next friday so the window is short for me. I probably should have left things alone until I got back, but I was so worried I would get off track.. I'll wait and see..

I did  ask what my goal wt should be and she told me they calucated 150. which still puts me in the overweight cat. ?? don't get that at all.. I would like 140 would settle for 145 which is just on the edge.. So we will see.  I know I don't have to much to go, but the journey then will just being..


Take care,

7/17/12

He is here, Our new grandson..  It was a surprise since he wasn't due until Aug 2nd, but he and mother are healthy and very very happy so that's all that matters. I was sad I wasn't there,but will be in 10 days, so I really have something to look forward too..

My wt today is 169. I am 5 pounds away from losing 100 pounds.. Wow! unreal.. I can't believe it.. I'm sure the 5 pounds will take forever to come off, but that's ok..
Changing my excercise and eating a small bit has really help jump start my wt loss again. It really was slow there for a bit, now it it coming off like it used to.. I find if my excercise number is higher then my calorie intake the wt comes off much faster too.. Really happy will the progress of done so far.. My goal was to get to 175 before I leave to go on vacation, but it looks like I will exceed that and maybe even make it to 165, even though I think that doubtful..

I really have to get in and get my rings adjusted.. I can barely keep them on, it's that fun.

Yesterday, I was sitting thinking. Since I'm alone most day's I do spend a get deal of time thinking. T
How did I ever get here?? How at one point in my life I thought 175 was fat?? What happened to me?? I really am trying to figure it all out.. I was never the kind of person who would seat infront of the tv and eat. I would never eat whole pizzas ( two slices were all I could take ). I would only eat desserts on Saturday. I allowed my self 1 candy bar a week and I would get it at the check out stand when I got our food for the week. I always made healthier food choices when we went out to eat. So how in the world did I get to 264????? Easy, portions! We went out to eat 3 to 4 times per week. I might order a chicken salad, or even salmon salad. My fav salad was fuji apple chicken salad at panera. I would have that every thurdays.. It's the portion size that got me.. I would eat the whole thing.. I was never a fast food junky, except I did like a in and out burger or five guys..  Well, even if I went out and order a salad, those salads were usually between 1200 to 2000 calories maybe even more and you have that at 1 meal, and then have 3 to 4 day's a week. It all adds up. You never really know how many calories something is until you look it up.. I so think putting calories on the menu is such a great important idea, because this way we all can decide if we want to eat that many calories or not, it's still a choice but one I will think twice about before I ever do it again..

7/16/12

Happy Monday!!  Hope everyone had a great weekend.. We pretty much just stayed home, which was nice we usually don't do that on the weekends, but we need to start getting things ready for our drive to Montana..  Can't wait !

Wt today is 170! It's slowly coming pound by pound.. Wish it was faster, but this is the healthy way. I'm headed for another fill on Wednesday. Not sure I really need it, but think I do. I eat a  my portions just fine, but like I've said before, I can keep eating after sometimes, I can drink and chew normal, would like to have a little bit of slowing down when I eat and that's not happening.. I can eat my meal like in 10 mins, if that. So I think getting a tiny fill will be fine for me. I also have to think about the trip and would like a little bit more control on our trip..

Not much else as always.. Told me my life is very boring, unless I have a dr. appt or need to go food shopping I'm home.. No I don't work, so I just hang at home, work out, take care of the pets, etc..

Have a great week everyone!

7/13/12

Today's wt 171.. How that happened is beyond me, but I will take it..  I have changed things up and bit so maybe that's it. My treadmill work outs are a bit different, I also changed what times I eat and got rid of 1 protein shake, so maybe those two things made the scale move. Who knows!! I will keep doing what I'm doing and we will see. It was a very nice surprise though.. I didn't even workout yesterday, except going to the mall and clothes shop, so maybe shopping should be a new excercise, lol!!

I'm finally down into a solid 12 in pants, amazing!!  I danced around the dressing room for a bit, loads of fun.. I'm trying not to buy to many clothes but we are headed on Vacation for 3 weeks here in a few weeks so I so needed some clothes.. I will make due with the 14 ( even though they are big ) size clothes I am in now just I have something to take, they are all new items anyway and I need to get some ware out of them..

I only have about 26 to 31 more pds to go.. I would love to get to 140, but my goal was always 145. If you go on the BMI chart, 145 will make me just at the edge of normal, so I've reset my goal to 140 to give me a little room.


Anyway, below I will list my wt info..

Have a wonderful weekend.




Heaviest wt: 264
Wt day of surgery: 250
Wt lost so far: 93
Wt since surgery: 79

On we go!!!

7/11/12

Happy Wednesday!!

Wt 172.5..  I had a heart attack today on the scale when I got on it this morning. It said 174??? How?? I took a water pill yesterday, I've been 172.5 for 3 days now ( even saw 171.5 ) so how 174?? I decided to take pj's off and there was 172.5 how my pj's weigh 1.5 pds is beyond me, but it did.. The scale or at least my scale is a funny thing. I can get up pee, weigh be 172.5 then go downstairs, have my tea and then breakfast, come back upstairs to get gym clothes on, weigh myself be 171.5, then later be back to 172.5. It's always all over the place..  Yes!! I go way overboard with the scale, but I like it that way.. I have to know where I'm at, can you say control freak.  

My dr. called about my thyroid yesterday.. Seems I have thyroiditis. No reason why I have it or cause, just do.. She said there is a 30% chance I could develop hypothyroidism so they are going to monitor me and see how I do and take it from there.  Keep fingers crossed all will be well..

Well, not much else going on. I'm headed off to the treadmill and do my hour today. Yesterday I did an hour and half..

Have a great Wednesday!